Mar 12, 2014

Breakups are Hard..

I haven't blogged in almost 2 weeks. I just haven't felt led to write lately. These 2 quotes pretty much describe what I'm feeling right now.  I am about to honest about a few things so you have been warned. 

It's hard to accept the person you love or in my case loved is not the person you fell in love with. ( I still love him as a person but not the romantic love any more. Sure I miss "us" sometimes and most of the time now I miss the companionship.) 

When me and Bryan started dating it was all about me and our happiness. I was the number 2 to number 1 being God. I was loving it. 

Then we both graduated and a lot of things changed obviously. He had to find a job obviously to support himself and enventually us which we were both planing on that. He got a job 2 hours away. I thought we would be ok because we had been further away while at school.  But that's wasn't the same at all. 

Work slowly became creeping up to the number 2 spot and I was put on the back burner. eventually it has become number 1. I hate to say that. 

He promised me at the beginning of this he would never hurt me. But as you can see he did. 

So right now I'm struggling to make sense of it. That the guy I love/loved chose this over me. 

I am angry at God right now because of all this. I know that's stupid. But right now it is the only thing I can make sense of. I know I will finally figure out one day why this happened, but right now I can't. 




  1. Break ups are sooo hard. I'm so sorry, Kaitlyn! Just know that it's okay to be mad at God. He can handle your anger, sometimes I forget that! I know He has a plan to bring good into your life through all of this.

    Love you!

  2. Break ups are hard. His priorities were obviously messed up, but in his defense, taking time to get somewhere in your career is important too. The timing for you guys just wasn't there. Don't stress about it. It will end up the way it was meant to.

  3. I feel your pain! I have been separated from my husband since Nov. We are working on things and it is looking good. But I can totally relate. I was where you were up until a few weeks ago. I'm sorry that he can't see the wonderful person you are and if that is the case, then it is his loss. (yes I know it is easier said then done) If you need to talk I'm here <3

  4. I'm so sorry. Break ups are really tough. I dated a guy for 3 and a half years only to find out he had been cheating on me the entire relationship with many girls. It's shocking to find out the person you love isn't that person. I can't tell you the pain that it caused me, but then when I least expected it, my now husband came into my life and everything fell into place. God is always in control and maybe this is Him telling you he has someone better for you. I'm praying for you and hope you start writing again soon.