Hello Blog World...

Hello Blog World!! 

Nice to see you again. I'm sorry I have been MIA  since March 12. A lot has happened since then. 

Well to recap breakup happened. I was angry with God for letting who I thought was the love of my life leave me. I was so so angry y'all. 

Well on April 2nd me and God finally had "the talk."  I was sick of being angry and sick of being taking advantage by guys. So I finally prayed to God to take away my anger and finally help me overcome this life I was living. 

On April 8th I started to this guy named Adam. At first I was nervous just because to me he was way older then what my "guidelines"  were. However I looked at his interests and his hobbies and I knew we would hit off. At first I was like oh he could be a great friend to have. So we started to talk/text every day. 

On Saturday the 13th we were talking about sushi ( he had never had "real sushi" before me he would only eat if it was on a buffet) and I remembered he brought up he just had gotten paid the previous day. So me being the smart one asked if he wanted to go try "real sushi"

with me at this place. Which he did. It's only 30 min away so i told him I would meet him there in a hour and half. So I showered and got ready to go. 

Y'all I was so so nervous. So I met him and y'all all my nerves went away the moment I hugged him. We ate sushi ( with pop rocks on it no lie) and had some Cold Stone. It was by far one of the best first dates I ever been on. 

We have been together ever since!! 

He asked my dad to date on May 9th.  

We have been on more dates these past almost 2 months then I did with MAG and JBK put together. 

And he texts and calls daily!!!! 

I am going to try and blog these next 29 days!! 

I will talk about our dates and other stuff that is happening!! 

I also hope you love the new blog design!! 

I will leave you now with some pics!! 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

First pic and first date 

2nd date 

A Wedding Date 

Right After he asked my Dad

Our usual selfs 

(just kidding) 

The Day he shaved for me!! 😍😍😍

And us being funny!! 

Breakups are Hard..

I haven't blogged in almost 2 weeks. I just haven't felt led to write lately. These 2 quotes pretty much describe what I'm feeling right now.  I am about to honest about a few things so you have been warned. 

It's hard to accept the person you love or in my case loved is not the person you fell in love with. ( I still love him as a person but not the romantic love any more. Sure I miss "us" sometimes and most of the time now I miss the companionship.) 

When me and Bryan started dating it was all about me and our happiness. I was the number 2 to number 1 being God. I was loving it. 

Then we both graduated and a lot of things changed obviously. He had to find a job obviously to support himself and enventually us which we were both planing on that. He got a job 2 hours away. I thought we would be ok because we had been further away while at school.  But that's wasn't the same at all. 

Work slowly became creeping up to the number 2 spot and I was put on the back burner. eventually it has become number 1. I hate to say that. 

He promised me at the beginning of this he would never hurt me. But as you can see he did. 

So right now I'm struggling to make sense of it. That the guy I love/loved chose this over me. 

I am angry at God right now because of all this. I know that's stupid. But right now it is the only thing I can make sense of. I know I will finally figure out one day why this happened, but right now I can't. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

I wear Purple Today

hey everyone I am guest posting over at my friends blog today but you can check out what I wrote here today as well as on her blog and I would love for you to go support her as well so I'm going to give you her blog address as well. 

               

http://www.finding-free.com/?m=1

hey everyone! I'm Kaitlyn. I'm Lauren's biffle/biffie. I have been her friend now for 3 years going on 10 plus. Totally kidding about the 10 plus years, but really I have been her best friend for 3 years now.  How did I know she was going to be my best friend she got me out of a shirt in a dressing room. not even a week knowing me. haha.

We have been through a lot together my first 2 relationships plus the heartbreak coming from those events. to the biggest one of them of them all.  

           Lauren's eating disorder. 

You see I found through email before she came out on this blog. I was the first friend she told. Receiving that email was one of the saddest days of my life. I blamed myself for not seeing it. I spent everyday with this girl. Well mostly everyday. Oh I cried for days. 

However being friends with a person who has ED in serious and hard business. 

One of the hardest things is when the disease even cut me out of her life for sometime. It was so so hard. You see Lauren is one of the true friends who actually gets me. She gets my weird quirks, my anxiety. this girl is going to be yellow dress 

( jk) wearing bridesmaid, my engagement photographer, and so much more. 

Here's a few things you can do to help if your "Lauren"'in your life has an ED. 

1. Find the right time to do it. Don't do it when it is a stressful time. Be cautious when you do it. 

2. Don't let the focus be on meals. this is one of the hardest. meals are hardest for people who have ED. So do something else for a change. 

3. Lastly be patient with them. Her ED won't disappear over night. Rome wasn't built in a day people. Just be there and love on them when you can. 

I hope you enjoyed this post. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

Quotes...

Change..

There's going to be a lot of change around here. that's not including what I did to my hair on Saturday. which I broke one of my 25 before 25 goals. 

I cut my hair. Like a lot of it. It was needed. I had a ton of dead ends. plus it was getting way too long for my taste and it has so much body  and get tangly so much. 

that's all of the hair I lost well most of it. 

The Finished project!! 

I am so in love with it. I even like I can't put my hair anymore. 

Also this is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever typed. 

Me and Bryan broke up yesterday. I really want to respect himself and I during this time not to get into specifics. 

However I do want to say. I am so glad for our relationship. He showed me a lot. He showed me good guys do exist again. That someone could love despite all my "scars."  I am so thankful for it.

So right now I am going to focus on me. I worked out this morning. It was hard getting back up early, but I know/need/can do this!! 

So that's all for now. 

Love, 

Kaitlyn 

literary junkies Vol. 2

I linked up with these girls last month and I loved it.  espically now since I got a kindle from 2nd & Charles. I am so in love with it. I didn't think I would. haha. 

so now onwards to the questions!! 

1. What are you reading right now? Tell us about it!

I'm actually reading like 5 books right now. just started them. 

Eleanor and Park 

My Big Bottom Blessing 

Jesus Feminst 

2. What books are on your bedside table at the moment?

oh that's a ton. I don't have enough room on my bookshelfs so books on the bedside and floor next to it. 

I think one is Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows. haha. 

3. Amazon recently released the 100 books to read (http://facebook.us4.list-manage.com/track/click?u=e4b480e8080a5bd4a6734a386&id=9974f9b1f9&e=f00416b3fe) in a lifetime.  What did they miss that you would add?

ooo that's a hard one. maybe this book. it was a book of my childhood and will be when I have kids. 

4. Are there any books being published in 2014 that you are anxiously awaiting?  If so, what are they?

well it just came out a few weeks ago.  

 

the stars won't go out. it is by the person who the fault in our stars is dedicated too.

5. Name the next 3 books in your To Be Read List (the ones you will be reading next on your list.)

1. Serena 

2. I don't know yet it just depends on what's the cheapest on amazon or at the library. 

Another Wake Up Call..

So I have been really slacking lately with my health again and it's not been fun at all. 

with all the stupid weather and just not being motivated at all I've had enough of it. and some personal issues I don't really want to dive into right now. 

I even missed my 5K I was supposed to run/walk on Saturday because I was just lazy and lacking motivation at all. 

So starting today I'm starting afresh. I hope y'all can help me keep accountable. I'm back to drinking my water.  I hope to be down at least 225 by the end of the month. I know I can do it. I'm only 2 lbs away. then that would make my weight loss 25 lbs!! :) so I could mark off one goal!! thanks for supporting me again!! 

I would love to point at Mosby from Smplicity Is Key for waking me up as well!!  

Love, 

Kaitlyn